Epsom Salt Flush

So I am hoping to water fast the next few days after having to digest my binge last night. To start of this fast I decided to do an epsom salt flush. Now for those of you who don't know an epsom salt flush works like a laxative and you take 2 tsp. of epsom salt and mix it with a hot glass of water then your supposed to drink it. Now I don't know who the hell would be able to drink this crap, it is DISGUSTING. That's why I mix it with lemonade mix or crystal light but even then the after taste is dreadful though. I still have about half the cup full, hopefully I can finish it in one last chug... oh my gosh the after taste is soo gross!!!! atleast I finished it!!!!!!!! Seriously if I had access to laxatives I would never do this shit, this would be my last last resort. I can't wait to be able to drive so I can pick up laxatives and binge food galore. I still need to finish my 50 hours of driving and like 5 more drive times from the school though. fuuuuuck. But it's weird I'm like paranoid that for some reason they won't let me buy laxatives because they'll know of my true intent. Oh well I guess there is always self checkout.

Wow I just read back that paragraph and I sound like a laxative fanatic! But actually I'm not at all, I do the epsom salt cleanse like once every month, if that. Usually it's after my gag reflex decides to go on vacation, which luckily is very rare. I feel so bloated, I hate this!

An Introduction.

So this isn't the first blog I've had, I had one prior to this:http://tryingtoliveitonedayatatime.blogspot.com/

The reason I felt to restart a new blog because honestly I feel I have changed as a core of a person. I view myself as closer to dying everyday rather then living one day at a time. Okay I have to admit that the title "Dying one day at a time" is over dramatic and self pitiful but aren't we all a little dramatic and loathe in our own self pity sometimes? Don't lie.
         
To save you the time of having to go through random pages in my old blog let me fill you in of what it covers: I would try to follow ridiculous diets and would always fail, then after a year of doing that I shoved my fingers down my throat.
        
Now you may be wondering what this blog will be about since I have "changed as a core of a person." Well, probably the same damn thing. I'm just not sure what direction I will take this blog to though. Because you see, I get off topic quite frequently. For example, I haven't even told you the basics of me and this post is titled introduction! So let me begin, I'm 15 and I've been bulimic since I've turned 15. Literally, the first time I purged was my birthday cake! How screwed up is that? Anyway, no one knows. Wait I'm used to saying that but that's not true anymore! Last week I told one of my close guy friends. He's not to serious of a guy but when I told him he wasn't much concerned at all! So fucking fantastic, that just makes me want to get sicker, thinner. Currently I'm 5'3 & weigh around 105-110 and, constantly yo-yoing between the two (again literally, this morning I was 105 b/p'd a few times then my gag reflex decided to give out after the 3rd binge so I'm back at 110!). At the beginning of 2011 I was around 130. My goal weight right now is 100, and  I hope to achieve that before school gets out,three weeks from now!


Oh, I just remembered another thing I cannot stand about my last blog was that I felt the need to have a signature at the end of my posts, sooo cheesy. Mmmm quesedillas.